.for daddy.

for you sweetie, while you're away. hope this brightens your night.

we miss you.

xo,

your little family.

.happening tomorrow.

so this is totally happening tomorrow and i couldn't be more excited about it!

just a couple close friends and their kiddos. and a boat load of cookies!!!

**the invitation pdf [although i modified it] and original idea here.

.bangs.

and oh, yeah. i got some bangs last week, guys!

for those of you who noticed in my last post, good on ya! the shock is finally starting to settle and i am very much enjoying them. the hubby also likes them and i feel a lot more sassy with 'em. i guess at the very least, if they are good for anything, tickling my little fella's nose with them sure has been a favourite activity around these parts!

and please excuse the blurry pictures. husband is away at the moment and taking photos of yourself is hard. like ridiculously hard. 

.jack's firsts: gymboree class and a birthday party.

this weekend was jam packed with activities and events for jack and i. and while papa is away working [insert sad face here] we wouldn't have it any other way. keeping busy is the key to my sanity and helps the days go quicker until we get to see that handsome man again [hear that papa! we miss you over here at casa d'treb!]

we went to three [yes, 3!] birthday parties!! and all were equally awesome, but you'll be hearing about each of them in the next few days....

so for our first little person party, sweet alina turned two. jack put on his fanciest onesie [thanks auntie mikaela!], attended his first birthday party and also got to experience his first gymboree play & learn class. seriously, what a total blast!
jack was in heaven the entire time! so many lights. so many colors. so many kids. so much noise. this little man was happy as can be! he blew bubbles and played with balls. he squealed and climbed with babcia zosia. absolute happiness poured out of this little fella.

i just know he is going to be one social butterfly, perhaps a little like his mama and papa?

^ the look and body language of a boy who has seen enough of his mama this week and just wants to play ^ 

^ perhaps future gf + bf?

^ this is what a happy babcia [grandma] looks like ^

i think it's safe to say, that jack and i will be enrolling in the baby gymboree class this month ;)

.a mama and a boy.

i remember very clearly when i first dreamt of my son, jack. i was about 2 months pregnant. i didn't see his face or hear his voice, but rather just had this sense of him being a little boy deep inside my belly. 

some would call it mama's intuition, but i've always enjoyed thinking it was jack's way of starting our bonding session early. a bonding session which i so desperately needed at that time.

see, when i first had that dream, i remember sitting on the couch the very next morning telling my husband about it. i was confident that it was a little boy growing inside of me and i was terrified. 

i was worried that i would be a terrible mama to this little creation of ours because i had no idea what a boy did. how he played. how he learned. how he loved. i remember sitting there crying, my face drenched in tears, and sobbing that i didn't know how to be a mama to a little boy. that i would fail.

as my husband soothed me back to reality [those darn crazy hormones!], i started to think about my dream and it occurred to me that i was completely at ease in it. i wasn't nervous, worried, or uncomfortable with 'my son'. i wasn't a bad mama at all. i smiled and played. i was happy and calm and utterly in love.

i am convinced that jack understood that i needed that extra time to wrap my head around having a son. a little boy. and i think he wanted me to know that he was happy that i was his mama too, because over the next 8 long months he would visit me often. and we worked together to create this very special bond as we played together in my dreams. and from that moment on, at 2 months pregnant, i felt this protective love. a love so deep that i didn't even know existed.

and now, here in the flesh, we [a beautiful boy and his mama], share a bond that is just incredible to be a part of. i simply love our relationship. i can feel that he loves me so very much and i don't even have words on my feelings for him. i just know that it's so cool being a mama to a little boy and am so lucky. my boy and i.

**fyi: we never did find out our babe's sex till jack was born, which makes his dream visits so much more special to me. i always felt he was a little boy. ask anyone, i never faltered.

**and i'm sure it's just as incredible being a mama to a sweet little girl, which i certainly hope to experience one day, but wanted to share that entering the unknown [raising a boy, when you've always been around girls] is pretty nifty.